Saturday, January 10, 2009

Another Strange Occurence....

I know this is a once a week exercise but I've been playing with this deck again. It shuffles so well and it's waterproof!

Anyway, I did the moon spread, which you will see once a month here. I'm not going to go over the whole reading, mostly because I don't remember all of it, but there is one part that I wanted to post.

I combined 3 cards per position. This image was in the position for "waning influences." So these are things that will be waning through this moon cycle. Since tomorrow is the full moon, Wolf Moon, as it is January, the end of this cycle will be before the new moon on the 25.

Now, the reason I am writing all of this down is because I'm seeing it like an experiment. But I will get to that a little later. Here's the image I saw:

Now, the cards are: The Empress, The Queen of Pents (my sig), and the 8 of Swords. But looking at this image, I can't even bother to use my "book" meanings. What I see is myself, obviously, as this Queen is often my sig and I identify with her most. But what I see upon her back is so chilling. This is how I see my anxiety, I call it the Psychopath in my Head. And here he is, stabbing me in the back with all those swords.

Now how else would I have ever read those three cards in this way? I would have begun with the Empress, and gone on about my mother. But here I see, the Empress is the base, she is the foundation that I am relying on, and therefor also is my mother. It's all so clear to me!

Now let's take a closer look at those two so you can see:

Now here, where you can see the separate image, it looks like my psychopath is the one trapped.
Kind of trippy, isn't it?

Anyway, my whole purpose for putting this up is that this image, my psychopath, is supposed to be a waning influence in this moon cycle. I have just begun a new anxiety treatment so I am wondering if this reading is correct. I say this because when I do read about the possible end of my anxiety, it is always there but I never have a time on it. And here, I wasn't even asking about it and here it is.

I am hopeful, but also realistic. I love this deck and I love how this blog autosaves! I've crashed twice and didn't lose anything.

I've edited to add that I am also curious to see if my psychopath gets worse during the waning moon. Which would be interesting, but that isn't what the reading suggested. I'm just curious to see if it does either.


  1. I've never considered this deck before but now I've seen it in action it's so compelling. I thought that I would find the layering of images too confusing but it really speaks.

  2. ...And I was just going to say everything Essjay just said! What an extraordinary deck!
    You're a lovely reader, too.

    Stay with this deck for at least a while, please...!

  3. Just wanted to say I agree with both Essjay and Hils.
    Have you seen the movie Shutter? Not for the same reasons as the main character I'm sure, but the image reminds me of his plight in some ways.

  4. I wanted to say that I also suffer from anxiety (and depression - they tend to go hand in hand, don't they?) so I am well acquainted with your psychopath. If these cards represent your waning experiences then it is possible that the treatment is working for you. Remember to remain vigilant even as you enjoy the calm. Good luck, I know how challenging it is and want to know my prayers and energies are being sent out to you.

    BTW - I love the transparent deck. I thought it was kitschy until I saw it in action. Very powerful.

    Thank you for sharing


  5. I've been dealing with anxiety attacks since the age of five, so I have an idea of what you're going through. I hope the treatment works for you.