Transparent Cross...

I scrapped the last one as I just didn't care. I think I will keep to small spreads so I stay interested.



The central card, 4 of Swords, has been following me lately. It currently fits as I think I am finally recovering from an almost 7 week illness. I've been allowing myself to sleep all I want to. Last night I slept from 3 am to 1 pm. I've also been having very vivid sexual dreams, which is quite strange for me. Perhaps that is my brain signaling that my body is working its way back to health and life. Which is fabulous since I have been wondering if I was going to make it through this. So, yes, right now I am resting and recuperating.

The West brings us the Moon, which goes very well with my disturbing dreams but promises that as my body heals, so will the mind. So just ride it out, it won't take long. You are healing now and quite safe. It also warns, like I don't know this, of emotional ups and downs as the body heals. Yeah, my hubs is loving this part!

To the East, 9 Cups tells me that it is ok to let the family worry about me for a change. It is also reminding me of how much my mother worries so I must keep in contact with her and give her updates so she feels like a good mother and take one more thing off her worry list. I love how this card fits with the 4. That is how my family is, they wait there until I call for them. They are ready but allow me to choose when I need them. Almost like guardian angels.

And to the North, health and finances, we have a mighty scary looking Queen of Swords. I don't think I need to worry here. She's got it all taken care of. Holy cow, she really is quite something, isn't she? This is also telling me to be dilligent about my post care, with the pills and shakes I must take to regain my strenght. Last night, the hubs and I were trying to figure out how to get me to drink these awful powdered shakes. We finally came to pudding, which is working quite nicely but my doc would freak out if he knew. But the way I look at it, as long as I'm getting the nutrients in, what else matters? I'm severly underweight so maybe that will help put some weight back on. Plus, I'm looking forward to getting up and having a pudding shake for breakfast!

To the South, we have another one that's been following me lately, the 6 of Wands. How nice of him to show up in the position of his power! So my will and spirit are focused on being victorious, right they are. Perhaps with him and that Queen, I've nothing to worry about. I need my pudding, of course.

Oh my doc would just be so mad at me! He told me no chocolate! And I was thinking, "Yeah right. There's no way that tastes good enough to not need chocolate." There isn't any reason other than he wants only healthy things because I've not been eating for so long. Like to quickly rebuild my reserves before I go nuts on the junk food. But I have to tell you. The shake is so nasty I won't eat it. Not a bit. So last night Patrick found a thing of pudding and dumped it right in the blender. Then he made me taste it. And I ate it! So that's our answer. At lest I will get the needed nutrients in my body where they can do what they do. And I can eat pudding!